Friday, July 25, 2014

무슨 situation?


"무슨 situation? "
♥♥♥
괜찮아, 사랑이야
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Monday, July 21, 2014

after 370 days

연애조작단 시라노 tvn drama.. finally i watch the last two episodes after a year.. the final episode was aired on July 16,2013.. i think time stops when you keep the good ones till the right time comes.

Monday, July 14, 2014

emotions kill

before and after someone knows the truth is so different.

what if i tell you a before truth in a very uncertain information, assumptions and what ever lingering in my head at the moment of bad feelings and all the negative thoughts.. things might just go too wrong and you become like me...
but if after i tell an after truth which thankfully everything is positively and cleanly cleared all the negative thoughts, you get like "well that is ok".. you are being supportive and at that happy positive outcomes leaves a funny feeling in me... if only before truth being known first, things could be mislead..

Emotions can certainly be misleading: they can fool you into believing stuff that is definitely, demonstrably untrue. -Francis Spufford

Saturday, July 12, 2014

live neutral earth

when a female is said to be old enough for marriage people might mistaken you for a 'mrs.' and you say "no.. miss.." then people will go "owh"..and when that part came in ..you will feel inferior and you will be lost at word and when you still gathering your thought another killer phrase will come "why are you not married? " there you have it enough. and really that very same questions leaves me to think for an answer and my best answer is "I DON'T KNOW" like really i don't know and that doesn't satisfied the one who ask and they will keep on asking assuming things and so on and the best i can give for all the questions is just a smile a big one. REALLY?!? PLEASE COME ON PEOPLE there are people female like me in this world that have a different agendas written in my life which futures i don't know what will happen to me. and i dont plan things and if i do it is up to Allah to grant my plan to succeed or to fail. so to the singles dont feel so bad you are not alone.

there are positive quotes moving around social medias... "jika tiada rezeki jodoh, mungkin diberikan rezeki umur ibu bapa yang panjang. maka kita lebih bahagia dapat berbakti sepenuhnya pada orang tua" like maybe it is the reason we are given more time with our parents and how lucky we are to be able to be with our parents much longer to love and to care for them.. i think this is my wish granted from long ago just to be with my parents.. crying in my sleep feeling homesick when i was in boarding school long away from home years ago.

and being single means that when our sisters or brothers or parents or friends need us they can freely talk to us without feeling uneasy or awkward because we don't have husband or children to pass on the worries.. those worries end with us and listening to them is enough to make them feel less burden with whatever might be troubling our family.. we make a complete and safe circuit in family bonding.. when faults occur the earth will channel the overheat to the fuse and breaks the circuit for safety.. am i making any sense here? well anyway hopefully or what ever.. just a thought as i am now and my sister too is trying to handle something big going on.. pray that everything is going to be ok. 

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Chapter 2: His Love.. no more

Meet Goopy.. the one who used to chase after me like crazy..till we had to say goodbye..

Well how did it started? As haram it be.. there are ways for muslim to be in contact with this another Allah's creation. Our  so called backyard is bushes and rubber trees long forgotten.. and it homed another Allah's creation the monkeys. Since my father loves to grow fruits like banana trees.. it always ends up in the hands of the hanging monkeys.. till one day my father decided to keep this puppy came from stray dog.. it was pretty cute and i dont know who gave the name..but it was Goopy..  brilliant animal it responds well when we call his name from above the house...since we are not allowed to touch it.. so the closest we get was from the stairs. Goopy grew up jumping up and down when we call his name.. you know puppy grow faster and soon it became an adult dog. Well that is when cute is not the best word to describe Goopy. Everyday my sister and i had to run till we get to the fence that marks the territory of our home and our next door neighbour. Its a dog and we are not supposed to get in contact with it ... you know how dogs reacts to its master?!? So to avoid that possible contact we need to keep a distance. Coming home from school we had to be like a spy like  double 'O' seven.watching out in broad daylight if any harm might come any minute(i mean Goopy) even though there are times when it really is safe.. we ran anyway. I think when things got out of control adults need to find way to deal with the problem.. so Goopy is history that will be remembered as i get older.. 

There are things that we can keep if it is meant for us to keep..and there are things we had to let go when it is not meant to be.




The end.

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Saturday, July 5, 2014

Chapter 1: His Love

When i was a kid..going home from school was a depressing one...for a moment. Everyday i ran as fast as i can passed my neighbour's house because ours is at the back (shortcut walk to our house back then). Why did i run? For a teenage girl you kinda like when a guy chasing after you.but being a little girl it was the most embarasing moment. The boy lives next door to my neighbour and he is years younger than me. He likes to stick around my neighbour's house. He will scream my name on top of his lungs when he sees me or when my neighbour's see me and he was around. The worst was " i loveee youuuu!!!!" I knew that was all my neighbour's doing telling that little boy what to say. I think there was a flower involved but i never cared and just ran back home. Well time passes by and i don't remember when or how that daily routine stops. Later i found out that he is my little brother's age. I think his romantic feelings stops when he starts kindergarten and meet cuter girls his age.
credits to PicsArt application +cute stickers!

Despite all the runs i did, i never win a 100 meters race not even close for the qualifying round.

P/s: my running history doesn't stop there... there was Goopy who used to chase me too.. next time i will write 'All About Goopy~ cute turns aggresive' ( dont hope too much.. nothing special about him except me and the runs i had to do everyday :(

To be continued...

Friday, July 4, 2014

♥♥운명처럼 ♥널♥ 사랑해♥♥





So This is what it feels like doing work using a S**$ung ga1@×¥ t@b3 and for free for until the next owner..

ok back to this new wednesday and thursday drama.. a new most awaited drama (for me) for the next 8 weeks to come. Jang nara and jang hyuk again after so many years since successful story of... dont remember the drama title or what it was called in hanguk.
the shots were beautifully captured and the effects are WOW!!! Loving every take of the cene not the story but the film techniques itself looks great. Spoiler alert for that parody chuno moment in a fight. Same director or same music director?or just a courtesy for the hit drama where jang hyuk was the 'slave' hero.. cant wait for the second episode.. comedy and romancè? sooner than usual drama.. and hey look who is that good looking guy in pink shirt ?!?!?!! ♥♥ eheh super love him!!!

**jumping laughing happily faster internet connection at work makes me go all JUmpy jumpy excited thrilled and wuhooo!!!!! 
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Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Delete



There are times I just want to clean up all the memory that I don’t want other people to know
There are times I look for the memory that I lost
But I just can’t find it
And I don’t remember what the memory all about was
Then there is this part in me that feels empty, incomplete
It’s like a closet that needs to be filled up so I know I have everything I need
But sometimes I can’t really choose what I want to stay with me and what I want to vanish from me
But after sometimes I just let go what was forgotten
And hope it was a good one.

a day before Ramadhan



early to work have a slice (two actually) of pizza and a hand fan to cool  me away. save energy and support to a greener earth (actually the car's air conditioner doesn't work anymore)